My Stupid Rants

13 more days. 13 days to study. 13 days to not fuck up. You can do this boy. I know it's tough but we've been here before. Success is my only motherfucking option. Don't even think about failing. You will pass the exams. You will finish med school. You will become a great person. Now back to your books.

22/02/16 3.20 a.m. I miss cats. I have loads of them back at home. Cats are awesome. When you rub their back and they purr, it makes your heart purr as well. When they do silly things like ask you for food and you have to literally wave the food right in front of their eyes for them to notice. Or how they clumsily knock down the vase in your house. Or how they love to sit on your laptop and won't move. Or how they sit on your books when you're trying to study. Or how they sit on anything. They are effortlessly CUTE! You don't see many cats in Ireland. No strays. You see people walking dogs everywhere but no cats in sight. Well that's probably because walking and cats don't really fit in the same sentence. But I sorely do miss cats. You can see cats everywhere in Malaysia. A haven of cats. But if you do see a cat in Ireland, they are the cutest of living things! So fluffy and so fat! I miss cats. The kitten I found at Anjung, Yaya I've been thinki...

05/02/16 2.22 p.m. Nanti aku dah ada anak, kalau dia mintak duit dekat aku, kau sabar jap lah. "ABAH DULU! Masa takde duit dekat Ireland tu, abah bangun pagi buat nasi goreng, jual. takde mintak mintak ni" Yes, itu lah yang aku nak kata dekat anak aku nanti. Padan muka dia. Tapi sejujurnya, salah aku jugak. Tak rancang perbelanjaan aku betul betul. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail, and hey did I fail. But no worries, failure teaches you to be a better person, to learn from your mistakes, to make better decisions. And if I find myself in the same situation in the future, it's not a mistake. It's a choice. I have dug my grave, now I have to lie in it. It's not that bad actually, it keeps me alert and active. Sekarang takde masa dah nak bukak mata pukul 8 pagi, lepastu merungut tidur balik sebab nak sambung mimpi. Now as soon as the alarm rings I have to get up and start cooking (after solat of course) then rush to class. No more snooze button. I...

26/01/1 1.22 a.m. Salam. It's been a tiring day. Today (or yesterday) was the first day of class for semester 2 and I'm absolutely knackered. I promised myself to start blogging again since the day I flew here but knowing me, I've procrastinated even when I had nothing to do over the winter break (six weeks of mereput-ing) eh that sounded so wrong macam mereputing. puting. lol. But guess what guys I'm here in Dublin! It's only been about 4 months but I've done my best to make Ireland feel like home for now. I'm only gonna be here until December next year so I've to make every second count, and to be particularly honest, I'm not proud of my first semester here. The first semester was definitely what I'd call the 'honeymoon' semester, because I absolutely flunked it. I spent my mornings skimming through the lecture notes and the rest of the day watching movies (what a bad medical student I must sound like). But putting the past to be...