My Stupid Rants

Hello, in my last blog post I said I'd be writing more right, so here I am... a month later. I guess that's still improvement right? We keep on churning! When I first decided to start investing in crypto, of course my first topic of study was Bitcoin. It's the most popular cryptocurrency out there. Bitcoin was also the first coin that I bought, but soon one type of coin became three as I added Ethereum and Cardano into my portfolio (a moment of silence to fellow $ada hodlers).  As I dived more and more into crypto, I learnt about the differences between proof of work and proof of stake and how supposedly PoS is more environmentally friendly than PoW. All these claims got to me and I figured that all these cryptocurrencies could serve side by side as money alongside Bitcoin as there are many different type of fiat currencies such as the Dollar, Ringgit Malaysia, Euro etc.  Twitter is one of my favorite mediums to learn as there are many bright minds and established figures i...

Hello everyone, happy new year! 2022 will be an amazing year for everyone in sha Allah, the year we rebuild and try to move on from the haunting clutches of Covid-19 from the past 2 years. It's been a while since I blogged and I figured what better way to start my long lost hobby than a new year, a new fresh start.  As everyone following me on twitter would know, 2021 has been a transformative year for me. 2020 was the year I finally graduated medicine, after 7 years of relentlessly chasing a goal. Throughout those 7 years, every night I imagined myself holding that scroll and wearing that pointed hat to say 'I finally have those 2 sacred letters in front of my name. Dr. Irfan.' Alas, the tiring pursuit of chasing those initials got to me deeply and at the end of the journey, all I could think of was having a simple life without the burden of the unselfish life of a doctor. 2021 for me was about going on a journey, to rediscover my love for life. I did everything available ...

  Kelmarin kita dikejutkan dengan berita Security Commisions Malaysia akan mengharamkan Binance di negara ini. Perkara ini membuat ramai penggemar kripto mengamuk, sebab Binance merupakan exchange yang paling accessible di Malaysia. Tetapi kenapa Binance begitu popular? Kenapa asset kripto menjadi gilaan ramai sekarang? Apa beza matawang kripto dan wang kertas seperti Ringgit Malaysia? Ianya semua bermula dari Bitcoin. Pada era digitalisasi ini, kemaraan matawang kripto semakin merancak apabila harga Bitcoin mencanak sehingga 60K USD pada Mei yang lalu sebelum jatuh 50% dan kini semakin pulih. Bitcoin merupakan aset digital yang baru diperkenalkan pada tahun 2009 selepas 2008 housing market crash di Amerika yang menyebabkan krisis kewangan dunia. Di dalam kewangan tradisional, wang kita disimpan di dalam bank. Wang tersebut dibawah fractional reserve banking system akan diberi kepada orang lain sebagai hutang. Bank juga akan menggunakan wang kita untuk melabur pada asset2 lain un...

The year is 2032. It is the 10th anniversary of the end of Covid-19. Yes ladies and gentlemen, we actually got through the pandemic. What happened? Well the whole world finally managed to gain herd immunity by taking the vaccine, and like the Spanish flu, measles and polio. The virus just disappeared. The people were perplexed. What the scientists said was true all along! The vaccines did work! Don't get me wrong, many of those who declined the vaccine died, but I guess that's just natural selection at work. There were no more antivax. We still don't know what caused the disease, whether it was spread naturally as the scientist claimed from bats to people. Or if it was a man-made virus, one that was dabbled in to get ahead of the curve in the medical world but was accidentally released as the biggest fuck up of the century. Or if it was all a grand scheme by the hidden powers that control the countries in chase of global domination. We still don't know. What we know for...

Pada 30 Jun 2021, Pejabat Perdana Menteri telah menggegarkan negara dengan mengumumkan bahawa PM pintu belakang, TS Mahiaddin/ Muhyiddin Yassin atau lebih mesra dikenali sebagai Abah Kau sedang mengalami masalah dengan 'Pintu Belakang' beliau. Hal ini mengejutkan seluruh rakyat Malaysia yang risau mendengar perkara tersebut. Ramai mendoakan PM 'kembali' tetapi kembali ke mana ramai tak pasti.  Setelah berita mengenai pergolakan yang berlaku di dalam sistem pencernaan PM kita yang ke-8 tersebar ke seluruh dunia, keluar pula berita bahawa PM sepatutnya pergi menghadap YDPA Sultan bagi berbincang mengenai pembukaan semula Parlimen yang sebelum ini dikatakan segera. Namun, benda lain pula yang terbuka dengan segera sehingga Bapa Perutusan terpaksa dimasukkan ke dalam Hospital bagi menyelamatkan maruah beliau. Ramai netizen membuat andaian bahawa PM sebenarnya TIDAK CIRIT! Tetapi hanya menggunakan alasan tersebut untuk tidak berjumpa dengan Sultan. Adakah perkara ini benar? ...

5 years. That's how long it takes to get a medical degree in Malaysia. That doesn't even include the one or two years of foundation in which you have to struggle, so that you could struggle again for another 5 years. Do you know what kind of things could happen in 5 years Morty?? If I had gotten married 5 years ago, I could have had a kid, or two by now. Or, I could have gotten married, then realise that the marriage life is not the life for me and I could have gotten a divorce. Then, I could have gone through a cathartic moment in which I realised that life is not worth living alone and I should find a partner to share my joys and my lows- in which case I would have found another person that understands my emotional baggage and I would remarry again. Crazy right? All that could have happened in 5 years. Alas this is not fiction, this is life. And life is a thousand times infinity weirder than fiction. I was a bright eyed young boy when I started this journey, excited to face...

"Boy, tell me what are the complications of PPROM" I looked up from my notepad. I've been burying my face in it, scribbling furiously what the specialist has been vomiting out for the past half an hour. Well, not just that. I've been trying to make myself invisible from the Dr's hawk eyes, like a rat scurrying into cover from the majestic bird. She was looking directly at me, her sharp glare tearing into my soul. I froze. Oh faeces, she's talking to me. The whole obs and gynae rotation flashed behind my eyes, like how a dying person experience seeing all the good and the bad that they've done throughout their lifetime. I remembered how I was nodding off to sleep as my group mate was presenting his case, a fine bed-time story if were to tell you. It wasn't my fault, I've always been a sleepy head. Heck, I could fall asleep standing up. I'd be resting my eyes and the next thing I know it's 10 minutes later! In my mind was chaos, I knew I ...

I'm depressed is something a everyone says once in a while. Bila sedih putus cinta depressed. Bila m.u kalah lawan wolves depressed. Bila terpaksa repeat paper final sebab dulu kau depressed pun buat kau depressed. Belum sebut lagi pasal yang gunakan depression untuk gain attention or sympathy from people. It feels easy to say that you're depressed when you're feeling low and sad, but do people actually realize what is depression? Is it just something that people would say to gain attention? Or is it actually an illness that causes one to lose the ability to complete one simple task: to live? Depression doesn't happen overnight. Dia tak macam sakit demam, harini elok sihat esok demam, kau tak boleh marah 'eh tapi semalam aku sihat je!' sebab, demam tu memang boleh berlaku bila-bila la hanat! So depression is actually feeling low for an extended period of time (>2 weeks) including symptoms such as loss of interest, loss of concentration and pessimistic vie...

Hello guys its the 23rd of February and 5 weeks into my paediatrics rotation, and suddenly I have less than 3 weeks to my exams. That's the scary thing about university. Mula2 relax, chill la exam lama lagi, study awal2 buat apa? Kiasu gila korang? EWW... Then WHAM!! You start panicking because exam is in 2 weeks and you haven't even started studying while your classmates whom started early mumbles to you how they're worried about their studies' and that they are soooo 'behind'.... BITCH YOU STUDIED ALREADY I HAVEN'T TOUCHED A BOOK THIS SEMESTER. The thing about these medical exams is that there's a ton of pressure that comes with it. It's not just about reading books, but the work that needs to be done. You need to put in the hours son. You need to practice! You may read and feel that you've memorized everything, but if you haven't practiced and a patient is put in front of you.... Everything just goes... BLANK.  You'll be stuttering...

Aku ingat lagi soalan yang mat saleh interviewer ni tanya masa aku nak sambung medik dulu. Are you sure about this decision? Then I would go on this heart-moving story of how I was inspired by the life of Tun M when he was a passionate and considerate Dr, how he made it a personal goal to help others that are less fortunate, and how God whispered to me that I could make a difference in the world! I remember it like it was 5 years ago :') This man used to get on his bicycle and helped to treat people for free  at their house bc they can't afford to go to the clinic. An inspiration. Fast forward 5 years, I ask myself that question... EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I think about it when I open my eyes 6 a.m. in the morning when my inner demons tell me to go back to sleep and skip class. I think about it while I'm rempiting on my bike, mencelah like The Doctor on my way to the Hospital trying to avoid harassing these frickin BMs' sidemirrors with mine. When my groupmate...

\ You know that feeling. When you've had a rough day, and you feel like you need someone to talk to, and they're not around, and this morning you made eggs that burnt and didn't come out nice and round shaped because the yolk messed up when you cracked it open, and you lie on your bed with your headphones in and all i want from kodaline comes on..... and you just spiral into the depth of depression.... That's how I feel right now. Weird thing is, I wasn't even sad to begin with. But I guess being trapped in this room with 70 lectures to go through in 7 days while listening to depressing music was bound to make me feel something right? But I guess I always was an emotional guy. The other day during a Gorillaz concert, I nearly teared up during a song... Guess I was really in the moment huh hahaha. Being emotionally sound though, being able to feel a wide range of emotions, and to detect emotion from others is a type of intelligence which I feel I'...

What is the pump? The pump is when you're on Super Saiyan mode. It is when you're body is a fucking boner. It is when blood rushes to your muscle, causing hypertrophy, rendering a superhuman figure to your once stickly body. Your huge bro, just saiyan It is like looking for gold at the end of the rainbow. When you look in the mirror, you see someone that you could be, but you will never be, cause you're pump is always gonna be bigger than you bro.

13 more days. 13 days to study. 13 days to not fuck up. You can do this boy. I know it's tough but we've been here before. Success is my only motherfucking option. Don't even think about failing. You will pass the exams. You will finish med school. You will become a great person. Now back to your books.

22/02/16 3.20 a.m. I miss cats. I have loads of them back at home. Cats are awesome. When you rub their back and they purr, it makes your heart purr as well. When they do silly things like ask you for food and you have to literally wave the food right in front of their eyes for them to notice. Or how they clumsily knock down the vase in your house. Or how they love to sit on your laptop and won't move. Or how they sit on your books when you're trying to study. Or how they sit on anything. They are effortlessly CUTE! You don't see many cats in Ireland. No strays. You see people walking dogs everywhere but no cats in sight. Well that's probably because walking and cats don't really fit in the same sentence. But I sorely do miss cats. You can see cats everywhere in Malaysia. A haven of cats. But if you do see a cat in Ireland, they are the cutest of living things! So fluffy and so fat! I miss cats. The kitten I found at Anjung, Yaya I've been thinki...

05/02/16 2.22 p.m. Nanti aku dah ada anak, kalau dia mintak duit dekat aku, kau sabar jap lah. "ABAH DULU! Masa takde duit dekat Ireland tu, abah bangun pagi buat nasi goreng, jual. takde mintak mintak ni" Yes, itu lah yang aku nak kata dekat anak aku nanti. Padan muka dia. Tapi sejujurnya, salah aku jugak. Tak rancang perbelanjaan aku betul betul. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail, and hey did I fail. But no worries, failure teaches you to be a better person, to learn from your mistakes, to make better decisions. And if I find myself in the same situation in the future, it's not a mistake. It's a choice. I have dug my grave, now I have to lie in it. It's not that bad actually, it keeps me alert and active. Sekarang takde masa dah nak bukak mata pukul 8 pagi, lepastu merungut tidur balik sebab nak sambung mimpi. Now as soon as the alarm rings I have to get up and start cooking (after solat of course) then rush to class. No more snooze button. I...

26/01/1 1.22 a.m. Salam. It's been a tiring day. Today (or yesterday) was the first day of class for semester 2 and I'm absolutely knackered. I promised myself to start blogging again since the day I flew here but knowing me, I've procrastinated even when I had nothing to do over the winter break (six weeks of mereput-ing) eh that sounded so wrong macam mereputing. puting. lol. But guess what guys I'm here in Dublin! It's only been about 4 months but I've done my best to make Ireland feel like home for now. I'm only gonna be here until December next year so I've to make every second count, and to be particularly honest, I'm not proud of my first semester here. The first semester was definitely what I'd call the 'honeymoon' semester, because I absolutely flunked it. I spent my mornings skimming through the lecture notes and the rest of the day watching movies (what a bad medical student I must sound like). But putting the past to be...

" Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, berikanlah ku kejayaan di dunia dan akhirat. Berilah kedua ibu-bapaku kejayaan di dunia dan di akhirat. Berikanlah sahabat-sahabatku kejayaan di dunia dan di akhirat..." Inilah doa yang aku sentiasa bacakan selepas solat dan sebagainya. Itulah yang aku inginkan: Kejayaan di dunia dan di akhirat . Apa gunanya kita hidup dalam dunia ini, kalau kita takda cita-cita. Apa gunanya hidup dalam dunia ini kalau tak ada misi untuk berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat.  Bukan sahaja dapat berjaya dalam dunia yang sementara ni, malah berjaya lagi di akhirat kelak yang selamanya, dan semoga bertempat di orang-orang yang beriman. Apa gunanya hidup hari ke sehari, sekadar ingin berseronok, ingin bergembira sentiasa. Kalau kita tiada arah tuju dalam hidup ni, tiada motivasi untuk menjadi lebih baik, maka itulah yang buat seorang itu boleh jadi tertekan dan tiada semangat untuk hidup. Dari kecil lagi, aku banyak mempunyai cita-cita. Ketika umur 6 tahun...

Assalamualaikum. HYEEEEEEE! It's been so long since I've updated my blog, the last time I posted something was in 2013, and if you're good in maths that's frickin 2 years ago! Imagine that! At the time I was a naive 18 year-old, still childish and I wrote things that would make me puke if I re-read it again. Well, now that I'm 20, I think that I have quite matured, my perception of the world has evolved and I've started to think about more important matters about the world.... TRIVIA : the url of my blog used to be: www.life-of-irfan.blogspot.com SO EFFIN LAME RIGHT?!!! Now ive changed it to www.theponpun.blogspot.com  Which somes much cooler. AMIRITE? JUST KIDDING!!! But seriously... Kalau aku baca balik apa yang aku tulis dulu-dulu memang rasa macam nak delete je semua posts tu and start afresh. But alas, I don't think that that's something that I want to hide. What I wrote in the past should be compared to how I write now that I've becom...

Assalamualaikum and good evening :) Wow. Irfan update blog dia dua kali dalam masa dua hari! Teruja nya sayaaaa ZOMG xD Oh well. Memandangkan post semalam dapat sambutan, Saya pun merasakan yang patut jika saya post harini juga. Lagi satu. BOSAAAAN! Bosan sangat! Nak keluar, tak tau nak ke mana. Kawan kerja lah, itu lah. Abah kerja jadi memang tak bercuti. Cuaca dahla panas. Nasib baik aku ni lelaki. Boleh blogging tak berbaju xP wooo. haha. Jadi apa yang saya nak ceritakan kepada awak-awak harini? Well. Saya baru teringat, tak pernah kan saya cerita pengalaman di PLKN? Jadi harini saya akan menulis berkisarkan pengalaman saya selama dua bulan lebih itu :) Oh lagi satu. Saya juga dedikasikan post ini kepada rakan yang baru nak masuk kem PLKN masing-masing bagi panggilan ke-dua minggu depan. Jadi sebelum kalian semua memasuki dunia PLKN, saya akan dedahkan kepada kalian mengenai kehidupan di PLKN agar kalian lebih bersedia dengan apa yang bakal dirasai. ...